Who is your best bestfriend?
Well, I would say that I have none. I declared once that I have so many close friends, but hardly find the best one. It’s true… I’m keeping my friends close but I can’t decide who are the best for me.
I thought that some of us do the same thing like me. Because it doesn’t matter who is the best, friendship still depends on the the person and the time.
So, I had a casual dinner with my girlfriends who used to be my colleague in FISIPERS UI. There are Rani, Aini, Vitha, and Halida. We were came from different peer-circle and major study. We’re only have one common, ‘the need to share’. So we arranged date to meet everytime we feel the urge.
On Wednesday night, we met at Tebet Green. We usually had Dodi, Namira, and Seput joined in our so-professional-yet-kinship discussion, but there’re only 5 of us that day. So the conversation started from our thesis journey, the food who didn’t feel that good, love-life, career, until all kind of random stuffs about The Millenials. Since Vitha is the only one who were graduated and had a settled salary, she bought us ice cream. Then the conversation kept going until Aini decided to sleepover at Rani’s house and I moaned about my Gojek order who didn’t get a driver after 15 minutes.
When I’m with them, I realized about something, the reason why I wrote this post. I thought I found my own definition about friendship.
Friendship is a state in which person who have close relation to me gives meaning in exact time to fulfill each others. So the friendship term would be more flexible. I could say that my relation with Aini, Namira, Syabina, Anditha, Farraz, Gabby, and Nadia as friendship ’cause there’s meaning in every laugh, they give me happiness. I could say that my relation with CSG as friendship ’cause there’s a meaning in every highschool’s joke, they keep my memories alive. I could say that my relation with The Babi as friendship ’cause there’s a meaning in every existence, they were there when I have none to look. I could say that my relation with D’JOURNALS as friendship ’cause there’s a meaning in every struggle, they were there just to make a sense that we’re not alone in the battlefield.
But, they were not 24 hours actively keep in touch with me. They were not always here for me. Like today… I walked alone back-and-forth around the campus, doing something for my own, enjoying the me-time and I still remembered that I have an amazing friendship with those good people. Even in their absence, I felt fine. That’s enough to make me believe that I have to be stronger. Cause we’re grown up and the friendship itself would be rare to feel. So live it, let all the relations give us meaning.
In the end when you asked me who is your best bestfriend? I still have no answer. But you have to know that I would search for more friends, some people whom with them I could always build a conversation, share feelings, and find meaning. That’s all. That’s friendship.